Granddaughter Like Grandmother9 min read

by | May 20, 2018 | Love Letters

It was really nice to see you last night, even if it was only for a second… at least that’s what it feels like cause I can’t remember much about our interaction. But, it was enough to remind me of what you looked like when you were alive and what your voice sounded like.

That’s what I need… small reminders regularly… even though, when I get those reminders, it makes me miss you all over again, but it’s worth the pain, cause missing you is better than forgetting. And I can’t forget you… You’re my hero.

And don’t worry, I know what you were trying to tell me last night…

You want me to pick up the pencil and the paintbrush and start doing some mixed media on paper. I’m hearing the message loud and clear, but first I need to finish getting settled into my new place and then I’ll be ready… but not really, cause then I have to learn how to do it again, and then I have to practice getting good cause I’m not very good anymore. It’s been too long…

Plus, I’m not even sure what I’m painting.

…do you have any suggestions?

I was sorta thinking about tryin’ the water bottle spray effect. I wonder if I can just do different versions of those and then sell them for thousands of dollars, like you did…

Well, you did much more than water bottle spray effect, but art is relative isn’t it?

…so, I’m just sayin’ maybe I could be just as good as you, in my own way… that’d be cool, hey?

I also wanna incorporate ink with the watercolour, but I just gotta figure out how.

…I’m not sure if I’m supposed to draw out the pictures I took for the blog, and then add watercolour and ink to them, or if I should just draw random pictures and add watercolour and ink to them…?

I also imagine doing an anatomy series. Different parts of the body on their own, to really highlight what they’re all about.

I tried to do this with the psoas recently, but it didn’t turn out very good, so I have to try again.

But, I feel very excited about trying this and that’s a nice feeling to be in. It seems like lately, I have so much energy around this, it’s sometimes overwhelming cause I don’t know where to start and I just wanna be good now.

I’m also thinking about getting some of my images blown up and printed on canvas, cause that would be really cool too.

Then, I imagine my own personal art gallery, where you can come in and see all the different types of media that tell different perspectives of the story…

Or, the whole story in chronological order, depending on where you start and there’s a lot of different places you can start.

There’s the pieces of Mixed Messages…

There’s the Monkey Mind stories…
There’s the Phoenix Rising stories…

There’s the Cancer Diaries…
There’s the Love Letters stories…
There’s the Daily Hustle stories…
There’s the My Extraordinary Life stories…

Each story will give you a perspective of me, but if you only read one story, you won’t get the full story, so you won’t know what really happened to me.

But, if you read Confessions of an Empath, then you’ll get the full story of what really happened in chronological order, and that’s when you’ll understand how hard it really was for me to transform into someone awesome.

But, the perspective also changes, depending on the media platform you engage in…

You can read the stories as a book…
You can watch the videos…
You can listen to the spoken word audios…

You can look at the paintings and the pictures on the wall…

It’s up to you.

And it’s easy to choose when you come by the Satori studio…

The gallery where I put myself on display, all there under one place so you see all of Me. Then maybe, I won’t be so afraid of myself, and that’s what Satori is all about. Self. So, I would really like to see the Satori studio happen before Satori property happens, because it’s what I need in order to get to my own version of Satori.

But, Satori will actually be happening at the same time, so when you’re at the gallery, you can get your tickets to Satori.

You can also get self-care services that help you do what I did. Services that bridge the gaps between what’s missing in the systems we call healing and medicine.

If you want, while you’re there, you can pick up some herbal medicine.

You can also drop in and participate in some education so you can learn how to become the best version of yourself inside and out.

So, what do you think about that dream?
…it feels like a good plan for phase one, if you ask me.

I think you’d be very proud of me, cause in a way its Granddaughter like Grandmother, don’t ya think?

I just think if I could achieve that… just the gallery alone.

Then, I’ll have achieved everything I was going for, because all I ever wanted was to be as awesome as you.

To be an artist.

To be Pro.

To really be able to create some epic shit without limitations, and I think it’s happening.

I still have to sort the story pieces out, but I’ve accepted the journey and I look forward to it. I’m excited to see what I’ve written and what’s really happened since I started my quest for Satori, and I’m excited to see where I’m really going.

I just wanna say thank you for helping me.

I know you’re always right beside me and I know you’re always guiding me…

I know when the cop pulled me over yesterday cause I took a wrong turn down a one-way street, and when he was annihilating me because he feels like he needs to be mean to make people take him seriously… I know you’re the one that told me to cry.

I remember that’s what you did, cause it worked to get you out of a ticket, lol.

I never thought I could do that, cause I don’t like to show my emotions like that. But now, I see how emotions, when used properly, can do a lot of amazing things, cause when you told me to cry, it worked in my favour, cause the cop stopped being an asshole and let me go!

So, thanks for that.

Thanks for helping me decorate my new place so that it feels like home. Even though I hate everything I have and I really wanted new furniture, you helped me get a few things for cheap that really turned my place into something quite cozy.

And I gotta say…

I’ve never been so happy.
I’ve never felt so at home and I really do feel so blessed to have your support.

So again, thank you for everything.

I really think that we’re gonna do some amazing things, now that I’m not so scared to let you in, and that is something I’m really looking forward to.

So, feel free to meet me in my dreams anytime you want to tell me something… I’m listening.

I love you.

Goodnight.

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